Saturday, November 19, 2011

A Child's Words

Yesterday was 1 week out from my latest reconstructive procedure related to my double mastectomy. What was supposed to be a simple procedure without being put to sleep (only because insurance does not want to pay for it I'm sure), turned into 5 hours at the hospital and a very traumatic experience for me. I won't go into all the details, but to make a long story short, I should have been asleep, or at least given some valium or something to help me get through. I held it together while in the operating room, but when I got out to the car after it was over, the tears came. So, it has been another week of healing, dressing wounds, sleeping on my back, and watching the bruises turn purple and then green. I am so grateful that this is my favorite time of year and that the holidays are right around the corner. This is helping to keep my spirits lifted!

This morning, I removed the bandages on my side, and showed my boys (ages 3 and 7) where the doctors had stitched me back together. I let them touch the little loop of fishing line that is still sticking out of my body. Of course they thought that was really cool, while being a little freaked out at the thought of someone sewing on Mommy! My 3 year old came back to me a few moments later and this was our short conversation:

Micah: "Mommy, did you cry?"
Me: "Yes, Mommy did."
Micah: "Did someone hold your hand?"
Me: "No, baby, no one did."
Micah: "Was the doctor there?"
Me: "Yes, he was there."
Micah: "I wish I was there to hold your hand."
Me: "Me too. I would have loved that!"

This little conversation with my 3 year old little boy, was a hug from God this morning. It brought tears to my eyes and joy to my heart. I wonder, (but I think I know the answer) if our words of praise and love, as simple as they may be, to our Heavenly Father, bring Him as much Joy and pleasure! We are His children and "He inhabits the praise of His people!" Today I am reminded that I need to be intentional and remind my Father of all the ways that I love Him!


Peter and Nancy said...

That brought tears to my eyes, too -- and it shows how well you're raising your little man. What a compassionate boy. And what a courageous mama . . . I don't know if I could've kept it together as well as you did. Praying for a quick recovery for you,

Traci said...

Beautiful! Thank you for this.

Julie & Patrick said...

Love this! What a sweet boy. Hope that this procedure is the last of it for you. Enough all ready. Time to put this all behind you and get on enjoying life and those wonderful children of yours


rebecca's rainbow kisses said...

Dear Candice,
I stumbled upon your blog when I was googling 'India adoptions' after watching a 20/20 piece on Indian girls being aborted. We have some tender things in common. We have grown our family through adoption too. Our first son is adopted and then God in His great love blessed us with triplets after 10 years of infertility and loss. Our hearts are drawn to adopt again and our only girl would love to have a sister. We are Christians and see God working in powerful ways. I am so thankful that I found you this night. I'm sorry you have endured some painful days recently and pray you are healing well. I loved your Mission post too. My husband has been to Uganda with Lifewater International to provide clean water for an orphanage near Victoria Lake. He left part of his heart in Africa and longs to return.
~blessings, Rebecca